I am still in college ... still searching a ballad to write about ...like old movies that bring back nostalgic times of my grandmother and fords on the roads with a bowler hat... still searching for a truer calling .. to go back and see history write on its own is as scary as writing for the future... in grammar i remember my English sir saying there is no future tense only present tense and of course the past tense... i cant live an English gentleman's life nor can i live during the world war, i am now 23, i am now .... where to search... the future is as mysterious as the past, and the past holds good as to stop future evens form happening... to search is logical as it is as illogical it can be to search for the unknown and to find that which is hidden from me in me, to search for myself in myself